Today was a sad day. I saw my friend in the store. Her baby died last night. What do you say to someone who is grieving the loss of a child? Sorry? It doesn't seem like enough yet it's all you can say. Today was also the first day in a long time I didn't obsess over the referral wait. I was thinking about my friend. It is funny how you get so caught up in your own wants and "needs' that it is easy to forget there is so much going on in the world. It is not just us. I guess this is the reason that adoption has always been near to my heart. For me it seems like one little step to be a part of the world instead of just a part of "me." I have always believed that I was here for a particular reason. Adoption is what God has called me to do since I was very young. I know it. I am so blessed that I was able to be pregnant and have babies and I am just as blessed that I will be adopting again. To think that the Lord is entrusting me with a child who came from a womb other than mine. WOW! What a great calling. What a special blessing. I will be praying tonight for my friend and her family. I will also be praying for the millions of orphans around the world. We are all God's children. He calls all of us to Him.

Today I am stepping into the strange world of blogging. The wait to find out who my baby girl is going to be is getting painful. I need an outlet and I am going to try this. There are two girls out there waiting to join our family and I know who one is but not the other. Someday I may be able to explain that better! It is the end of a busy day and I am tired. A new friend of mine is having to remove her terminally ill 2 year old off life support tonight and my 2 year old is tearing up the house! What is the fairness in that? These horrible circumstances I see around me are somehow making me a better parent. Oh, don't get me wrong, I am far from perfect. This life is a classroom and I feel like I am in the 2nd or 3rd grade. I have a ways to go. Tonight I will be saying prayers for my friend.